Dear Diary!
I'm a burnt out autistic millennial rapidly approaching middle age and still not sure what to do with my life. I guess I'll scream into the void.
She/Her
mid-30s
Last updated 6/10/2026
I want to be creative again. I feel like all the creativity and spark is drained out of me. Maybe it's because of where I am. I hate living in Connecticut. I don't regret coming here, but I have been sick and drained mentally, emotionally, physically, and financially for the 3 years I've lived here.
I look forward to moving back to the mid-west, to Wisconsin where I have family and friends. Other than alone with my partner in our home, its the only place I've ever felt right in my own skin. Everything is, "once we move" and I'm so tired. so ready to feel like...myself again.
Tristan is food motivated.
My cat is my whole world, but he's getting older. I worry every day I'm going to lose him, but my partner thinks he'll be fine. But one day he won't. One day I will lose him. One day, the tiny creature that has relied on me for 16 years is going to leave me.
I started collecting dolls this year. I didn't let myself for most of my adult life because I told myself it wasn't allowed, but now part of me feels like I've wasted time, the other parts of me feels this is just the right time to start pursuing this hobby.